The sign of a tidy mind is not, I have decided, an untidy desk........mmmmm

Whether or not it was a 'thin' theme running through my mind; thinning hair, thinning blood, thinning body, or Thin Lizzie, but as usual I woke up this morning alongside Geraldine, but what was unusual was the fact that I was thinking about another woman. 'Nothing strange about that; situation normal !' my ex-wife Valerie is probably thinking.  Hearing all the breath being sucked in around me in anticipation of a confession. Well I am sorry to disappoint all you soap opera fans but on this occasion the woman I was thinking about, and who lives in Spain, is Liz. I know Liz only through the threads of the World Wide Web, (which incidentally is also how I met Geraldine ten or so years ago), as she was, in common with many others drawn there in distress, participating on the Macmillan forums. She was dispensing her own unique brand of care and support not only to her loving husband, who had been diagnosed with Oesophageal Cancer in March 2009, but also to a number of other forum users including yours truly. Sadly we learned that Pablo lost his fight against this all conquering foe and pass away peacefully last Thursday, 7th October and has now been laid to rest; at last safe from all the suffering. Liz continues to demonstrate bravery and fortitude in her bereavement and my condolences, together with my respect, go out to her and her son and daughter at this time. So it was in my waking hours that I was wondering how she was bearing up without Pablo alongside her and thinking just how fortunate I was to be sharing another day with family and friends.


Sharing life with me is not for the faint hearted and my thoughts drifted to what little things I could do for a start that would make a big difference. The immediate notion was to tidy up my ramshackle life, my study, my tool box, my bedside cabinet (now strewn with half empty pill containers and blister packs).................where have I put the paper work for my blood tests later today?..............no doubt you are getting the picture in full 3D HD! I know that Geraldine hates it and is resigned to there being little hope of changing my ways but I have decided it's time that my filthy habits are banished and my behaviour reflected my currently tidy mind. OK don't all applaud at once, it's not going to happen over night and it's not going to be easy; but there again I don't do easy anymore!
Now it's time for the regular dose of X factor in my life, capecitabine style and then a shower and a shave, probably the last for some time, before heading towards Guildford and hopefully on to see Ian in the Cotswolds.


Where did I put the bloody paperwork?